I must not think bad thoughts.

This extremely venting, very good post just disappeared on me. I am switching to Microsoft Word to do my editing from now on.

I was brilliant. I tied everything together. I am now almost as pissed as I was when I wrote it.

I will attempt to recapture the magic. Later. Let's just say for now that it was not the greatest of days.

Here's the thing...hope you like.

Remember when I said it’s been too quiet at work? Remember when I said it’s been creepin’ me out? Remember when I said it’s only a matter of time before there’s some bullshit directed my way? Remember when I said it’s been like waiting for the other shoe to drop?

I go up to the mail casing area that I have to work in for the next week or so. There are two sections that we work in, 030 and 043. Every case in 043 is full, except for two. One has a pile of somebody’s crap on a chair. The other is completely empty. No chair, the light is off, no personal effects. So I take a seat.

This woman, who is not a boss, takes it upon herself to come over and tell me that “(so and so) is sitting there, you can’t sit there.” I think “Excuse the FUCK outta me?” But I say, “Well, there’s nothing here, I’m gonna sit here.” She says “No, (so and so) is sitting there, you can’t sit there.” We go back and forth, I vent a little to Cindy who usually sit’s next to me. But to no avail. So, steaming, I swallow my anger (as usual) and go to the 030.

Less than 10 minutes later, supervisor Joyce comes up to me. Supervisor Joyce is one of several “non-confrontational” supervisors that we have. She says “I need you in 043.” I say, “Well, one of you boss wannabe’s over there told me that I couldn’t sit at the empty case”. She goes away and comes back in a minute or two. “Oh”, she says, “the two that were sitting at the end moved when they came back from break. There’s 4 cases open now.” In a “Ha-ha, isn’t that funny, please move…” sort of tone.

Most people wouldn’t have, but not me. I go back. Set on simmer and left to stew for the remainder of the day.

Before my last break I have another supervisor. This one comes up to me and says, “Uh, you have to get your badge out so it’s visible”. I pull my time badge out and he says “And THAT’s supposed to be in the rack.” So I do this mundane little idiocy. You see, I understand the guy has a job to do. The point of this is, everytime he’s talked to me, he’s told me that I’m fucking up in some way. (Can you say harrassment? Sure you can!) And that wouldn’t be so bad, but I don’t even know the guys name. I mean, the first time could have been something like, “Hi, I’m (I have no idea), sorry to bother you but…” Just a little common decency, is that too much to ask?

The facts we hate…
We’ll never meet walking down the road
everybody yelling "hurry up, hurry up!"
But I’m waiting for you
I must go slow
I must not think bad thoughts
When is this world coming to?
Both sides are right but both sides murdered
I give up why cant they
I must not think bad thoughts
(X’s “I Must Not Think Bad Thoughts”)

And this whole badge thing takes me to another point. President Bunnypants is running around saying….”We don’t know when it’s going to happen, we don’t know where it’s going to happen, we don’t know what’s going to happen. But something is…so BE REALLY SCARED…at least until I get re-elected (or, in his case, elected the first time).

Here’s a news flash for the Harrisburg P&DC. Terrorists are NOT going to attack the Harrisburg Post Office intentionally. If we do get a package bomb or ricin, it won’t be intended for us. It will probably be something on it’s way to DC. Quit overreacting.

And here’s another thing. With all due respect to those 3000 or so who lost their lives on 9/11, 15,000 people died in France because of a heat wave. I saw no outpouring of sympathy here. Primarily because some people are pissed at them because they had a little more sense when it came to Iraq.

What happened the moment the second airplane hit the WTC is that the terrorist’s DID win. With all this bullshit that’s being done now in the name of security, it’s time to stop. Yes, we need to be alert. Yes, we need to teach our kids to be alert. Welcome to what the rest of the world, especially Isreal and Ireland, have been dealing with for decades. So George, WE’RE PAYING ATTENTION, stop scaring us to death.

The civil wars and the uncivilized wars
Conflagrations leap out of every poor furnace
The food cooks poorly and everyone goes hungry
From then on its dog eat dog dog eat body & body eat dog
I cant go down there
I cant understand it
I’m a no good coward & an American too
A North American that is not a South of a Central or a Native American
Oh I must not think bad thoughts
I’m guilty of murder of innocent men
Innocent women innocent children
Thousands of them
My planes
My guns
My money
My soul
My blood on my hands
It’s all my fault
I must not think bad thoughts
(X’s “I Must Not Think Bad Thoughts”)

Music at work…Sheryl Crow’s “Tuesday Night Music Club”/ X’s “Unclogged” (Thanks to X for our little theme today.

The facts we hate…
You’ll never hear us
I hear the radio its finally gonna play new music you know
The British Invasion
But what about The Minutemen
Flesheaters
D.O.A.
Big Boys and the Black Flag
Will the last american band to get played on the radio please bring the flag?
please bring the flag!
glitter-disco-synthesizer night school
All the noble savage drum drum drum
Astronauts go back in time to hang out with the cave people
It’s about time
It’s about space
It’s about some people in the strangest places
Woody Guthrie sang about
b-e-e-t-s
not b-e-a-t-s
I must not think bad thoughts
(X’s “I Must Not Think Bad Thoughts”)

I did 25 minutes walking and I’ve been sticking to the diet, my weight now has a 2 in front of it…in clothing. Yaaaaa!!!!!


Thanks for lettin’ me rant people….BTW….Word works a hell of a lot better.